The darkness begins to creep in
slowly at first, but it builds up speed.
Silence does not exist
noise crowds in around me
not allowing me to hear
anything
anyone

It is cold and dark
and lonely
even 
when surrounded by those who love me

tonic slides down my throat.
It is not the answer
it is not the cure
but it sure works well for the time being.

I am concerned about how well i can take it.
How often I want to take it
How i KNOW it will make me feel better.
How i know that in the long run it will not.

SO i am going without.

But it is an old friend
and it keeps me company
here in the dark

I know the monsters here
they are familiar
but that doesn't make them
any less scary.

Fear
of many things
the noise
the silence
the tonic
the fear itself.

ANd the darkness
continues to flow in
ebbing
like the tide.

Comments

[x-hausted hubby]

This darkness I know. There is a light for you in dark places. That is what removes all fear. Bring the light with you and come have coffee.

[Angela Klocke]

Poetry, or something real happening for you? You have friends, you know! :D

[Creechman]

Nice.

[Jaime]

Hmmmmm...I know the feeling.