Wednesday...it's the new Friday!

Here at Wilsonworld, we don't go by the traditional calendar. Because I am on midnights, and because I work 4 on 4 off on a rotating week, my weekends often fall in the middle of the week. Like they do this week.
It has been a long week for me, filled with worry and doubts. I wondered whether or not to post about the things that trouble me, but i have a child who reads this now and I did not want him to become anxious.
But I have spoken to him, and so, now I can blog without doing him any damage (or anymore damage).

A few months ago, I found a lump.
Now, it was not a big lump, but it was not there before and so it caused me some concern.
But then it went away.
And then came back.
And went away.
and now it is back again. (i am thinking of charging it rent)

But i decided that I was not going to play its game, and so i mentioned it to my doctor. Who examined me, and said..we need to have this checked.
And so i find myself off to have my boobs squished in a mammogram-type of way, followed by ultrasound pictures.

I know that it really is not a big deal. There are lots of reasons for lumps and bumps.
Thousands...I know because I made the mistake of..you know..googling it.
I should know better.
But I did it anyways.
BIG MISTAKE.

If i wasn't feeling anxious before...good ol' Google took care of that for me.

My head of course knows that there isn't anything wrong (knocking on wood..as my tests aren't until tomorrow), but there of course is that little voice...not THIS one....but the one that said...to Faith, my MIL...there are thousand of reason as to why there is a lump there...THAT is not one of them. But in her case, that little voice was wrong as well all know..and after the Breast Cancer, Lung Cancer and Brain Cancer had taken their toll on her, i was forced to realize that sometimes that little voice of reason is wrong...

I am sure that my tests will all come out fine, and I will be laughing and shaking my head over this in a few weeks....but we all know how the little voice can nag at you.

this is one time that i think i am going to ignore my inner voice.

Comments

[Mary]

Glad you decided to not play the lumps game and went to the doctor. Keep positive thoughts and I am sure everything will turn out okay. I'll be thinking about you....

[Vince]

But the important thing is that you went to get checked. And as for Googling, it really was a good thing, too, as long as you don't let the possibilities overwhelm you.

But I'm a big believer in being informed. I get that from my mom, a retired nurse, and several family members and friends that are in the nursing profession.

In the mean time, positive thoughts and prayer.